If you’re a reader of my
blog, you’ll notice that it’s all about heartbreak. But it says on my blog
description that I’m a fashion-enthusiast and a camera buff. How weird is
that?! HAHA.. Oh well, 2012 wasn't a good year for me. What’s best on that year
is that, I took my comprehensive exam for the 2nd time around and
gladly, I passed it! J
Comprehensive exam is the last exam that should be taken in our program in ADMU
(Master in Environmental Management) before proceeding to our master’s project
(equivalent for a thesis). This comprises all the subjects and learnings that
we had on our 3-year class and the exam is oral not written. And for you to
know, I’m not good in oral examination and even reporting. I easily get
butterflies in stomach every time I’m in front of people. But I know I’ll
overcome it in time. HAHA..
So enough of my
comprehensive exam. The important thing is, I PASSED! Right? Basically, my 2012
was a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes I was up and sometimes I was down. I didn’t
notice the people who rode with me; that they were just sitting at the ride and
watching over me; letting me do what I think best for me until I realize it is
not the best after all.
I lost love at the last
quarter of the year. I didn’t know how to pick the pieces of me when I lose
myself. I let myself cry to sleep at night and even get so much drunk on
weekends just to fill up the incomplete part of myself. Pieces of advice were
scattered around the corner. I tried to sync it in my head because I wanted to
help myself from standing up again.
Losing of the person you
love doesn’t mean losing the people you have left when you were blinded by
love. These were the people who I got hurt and took them forgranted when I
offered my world to someone who I thought my FUTURE FOREVER. These were the
people I didn’t expect I can run to when everything’s falling apart.
God has been pretty good to
me. He gave me the best of everything accordingly. My prayers were answered one
step at the time and gave me the people I needed the most. First, He sent back
the closeness that I and my childhood friends back. We had time to hang out
with each other and bring the most out of it. They helped me to be happy since
I felt that I was left hanging in the air by the questions that have been stuck
into my head. 
From Joyer's intagram
From Joyer's intagram
These
photos were taken last November 2, 2012 when I asked them to accompany me to
buy a new office bag in Megamall. These are my 2 childhood friends who really
know me well. I'm so glad that we could hang out like this even if I haven't
been with them for almost 2 years. We could only hang out with each other
during christmas and new year since we have our different lives even if we live
in the same village and guess what... our house is just one step from each
other.
From Joyer's intagram
This
is my most favourite photo of ours. They asked me to make face since they know
that I’m not getting good. I was in a worry mood at that time and thinking too
much between I and him. So to make the moment quite good, here’s the solution
for it. Isn’t it good? J HAHAHA...
Second,
my family got closer now. My parents treated me as their "baby
bunso". I'm very well-taken cared of. My mom prepares my breakfast in the
morning and my daddy always asks to be accompanied by me everytime he wants to
go out. Daddy even dated me last Dec. 26 at Kimpura, Greenhills after he
shopped me with clothes and shoes as his christmas gift to me. I'm back to
being spoiled brat again and I'm loving it. HAHAHA....
Third, I was able to go
to places I haven't been before. I was brought by my friends and they let me experienced
cheap thrills. Cheap thrills make me feel like a kid again most especially when
I get dirty all over my clothes and got stained by streetfood sauce. (masyado akong alagain pagdating sa mga
ganyang bagay). HAHAHA….
Fourth, I felt the love and care from my sister
and brother-in-law. They gave me the happiest Christmas gift ever – shopping at
Forever21 plus a set of imported body lotion and a perfume. I know I’m kind of “mababaw”
kid but those are my weakness as my “kaartehan”. Everyone knows that I’m “maarte”
and that came to be part of my well-being. HAHAHAHA….. My sister also
considered me as her “bestfriend” since I’m always there for her during good
times and most especially bad times. I want to repay all her goodness to me in spite
and despite of ups and downs as being sisters. I always want to be there for
her throughout the way most especially when she’s getting hurt by all her
adjustments in so many things. We’re just 2 siblings and there’s no one we can
get help and assistance from except from the both of us. So we just have to
accept each other’s flaws whether we like it or not. HAHAHA….
Fifth, I was really surprised when my colleagues already spoke about me. I was teary-eyed when they were advising me about so many things. I felt their love and concern to me since they know what I truly deserve. I felt how special I am to them and showed me what’s best in me. I know I have so many flaws but still, they accepted me for who I am and they’re thankful that I became part of their lives.
These photos were taken
during Raiza’s birthday party last November 23, 2012. This was the craziest
moment of lives that we even got to sleep in a resto-bar because of our
drunken-ness so I really do apologize for my look. I was in the influence of
too much alcohol at that moment and in the hype of crazy-ness as well.
I’m very thankful for all
the people who have been there for me at my falling-apart season. You never
fail of extending support to me and hug me with your love and care. Thank you
for those nights of being intoxicated and days of being cray cray. Now I know
what people mean when they say “I’m so blessed” because you defined it by means
of your deeds. I won’t ever forget all the pieces of advice that you showered
to me. I know I’ll find my very own true love someday because God is still busy
writing and directing my love story and He wants it to be a blockbuster one. I’ll
be looking forward to more and prosperous blessings this 2013 and I want it to
share with you. Thank you for coming into my life. You are very much welcome to
join my ride in my everyday journey.
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